You. You completely and totally screwed my over. So where the hell is your ten page apology letter to me? Saying you're sorry not just for messing me up for, possibly, permanently but for the after affects, the shock waves.
I take back my apology. I believe I have every right to be angry with you. I shouldn't have brought anything up about that at all. It is not my place to be sorry about any of this. You don't deserve my apology and now I can't even tell you this because you would just try to work it out with me. And I REFUSE to do that, ever again. You screwed with two of my major friendships, that hadn't even started til after I met you. I am so mad at you.
I might have done some things I'm not proud of, that was what Sammi wanted to know about. And I didn't tell her, sure. But I wouldn't have even brought it up if I hadn't first wanted to drop it off on you. She reminded me so much of you, all GOD and naïveté rolled into a nice little blonde sarcastic package. Busy. Working. All the time. Good smile, cute laugh. Awkward. Can take me on, gets intimate quick. And so SCREW YOU. Because I might not have messed this one up if you hadn't gone and thrown me out the window.
I know you're married. I know you're in school. I know you're working. I know you're busy. But a warning would have been appreciated, to say the very least. Sit me down, tell me like an adult. Don't lose me in the crowd. You might as well send me a postcard and tell me I'm unimportant. Well, actually, you did worse than that. You left me to figure that out for myself. And I hate you for it. You will never have my trust back. EVER.
And I'll tell you this too. Riane is ten times the friend that you will ever be.
You have never apologized to me. The most you gave me was a friend request and a message. How about a phone call? Where the hell are your guts, your integrity, your spine?
So I am done. I am better than you. Because I will let go of you and I will never look back. And I will learn from your mistake the lesson that you never learned. I will not screw people over like this. I will give them an explanation, I will give them dignity. I won't leave them standing in the middle of the road bewildered.
